oog, life

[esmenet]

I feel simultaneously like I have far too much to do (because I keep freaking out about it) and not enough (because obviously it's not enough to force me to sit down and do it). Usually I would say "well, I guess that makes this the happy medium" except if that were true I wouldn't have spent so much of the past two weeks crying/almost crying.

I don't know, maybe it's caused by not eating regular meals. Or some shit like that.




eat

finish up/check grammar in 日本語 workbook

practice violin start enjoying music again so that I can practice violin

read Journey to the West

start term paper (seven-ish pages, possibly about the (non)difference between literary/cultural figures and religious ones)

decide what classes to take in the fall

geometry I was supposed to have done last year

get GED

start studying mandarin

start studying latin

get to bed on time more than once a week

practice piano (at some point in the distant future)

learn to play organ (same)

learn 単語 for upcoming vocabulary test

read some of these books I've bought over the past few years that are still sitting on my shelves unopened or barely skimmed

clean room

buy shoes (incidentally heels.com is a lovely place to window-shop; they let you search by heel height and brand and colour and toe shape and everything)

water plants

write Ashita no Ousama fic for help_japan

start on genderqueer Kaitou Kid fic for queer_fest and self

knit shawl

write Harry Potter idfic of doom

write Saionji fic for help_pakistan

write hilarrible My Little Pony crossovers

write fic where EVERYONE IS ACE AND HAPPY (wait no that's every fic I write)

re-read Natsume Yuujinchou

write Taki fic

exercise

cook food that I can eat at school

go outside and do things

talk to people

plan future in formats that are not random to-do lists

get job

be a real person who actually does things that aren't crying

learn to draw

get a good camera

buy more notebooks

make jewellery

do laundry

cut fingernails

see cousins again soon

read rest of Detective Conan

see RL friends outside of class

be better at talking to online friends

rearrange furniture

buy more pens

level up 'not being an asshole' skills

finish Edward Said's Orientalism

subscribe to everyone on AO3

acquire happiness


Things I have done:

made bread using the new food processor

eaten a late dinner

become comfortable in four-inch heels

decided to unlock this entry, since I'm sure everyone knows their scroll bar

started wearing lipgloss again

made lists

Comments

[terajk]

Your to-do list is awesome and scary. A bit like your Azula prompt for queer_fest which I'm thinking of claiming but am terrified of doing badly. (Yet I want that story and WHAT IF NO ONE CLAIMS IT?! *deep breath*) Actually, all your prompts are made of win.

be a real person who actually does things that aren't crying

*hugs* if you'd like them.

write fic where EVERYONE IS ACE AND HAPPY (wait no that's every fic I write)

FUCK YEAH! :D

Your paper sounds cool, too.

If you want someone to talk to, you can PM me or IM me (terajk).

[esmenet]

Aha! Now I have evidence that someone else was watching the prompting post just as closely as I was! (And eee, you liked my Azula prompt!)

I get Ty Lee hugs, awww. :D

Sometimes I wonder if I'm projecting too much onto the characters I write, having them not think about sex or romance nearly at all. And then I go 'wait no I don't care, ACE FUNTIMES FOR ALL.'

[littlebutfierce]

That's not a to-do list, that's a life plan!! (an impressive one, might I add) The thought of making a similar list for myself kinda makes me wanna cry in stress, ahahaha.

Don't stress about the Taki fic!! (& also about rereading Natsume--the reread posts will still be there if/when you get around to it. \o/ )

[esmenet]

It is basically my Everything To Do This Year list. :D And I can't tell you how much it helped to just list everything all at once, regardless of actual import or relevance. I mean, making it was stressful, but having made it was not.

I enjoyed the first reread post even though I'm saving my own reread for windows-opening weather! I forgot how asocial Natsume used to be, before Nyanko-sensei and Tanuma and Natori and Taki.

[littlebutfierce]

Ha, it's like that quote about hating writing, but loving to have written.

I love lists, so... on the one hand, the idea of that kind of list for the year is v. appealing to me. On the other, it might make me feel overwhelmed! ^^;; I dunno; I'm constantly teetering b/t trying to make myself more productive &, uh, fighting depression & being reduced to just doing whatever I can to get by? Which kind of sucks & doesn't do super-great things for productivity.

Hee, I can see window-opening weather being perfect for a Natsume reread! Sometimes I like to read things seasonally-opposite but reading them during the same season is awesome.

Watching anime that takes place in the summer makes me homesick b/c of the inevitable cicada sounds--which essentially are summer to me, having grown up w/them (in the US); in the UK there are no cicadas. ;_;

[ein_papier]

(This is aramis-chan from lj.)

That's a pretty awesome list! I hear you on some of these (learn how to draw!).
I read bits of Journey to the West, they were great; especially the beginning, before the actual journey. <3 Also, there was that TV show based on it which was fun even though I couldn't understand a single word of what they were saying...

Tell me when you manage the last one and tell me how you did it. :/ I hope you feel a bit better now?