I think I need someone to say encouraging things to me about writing what I want to write even if it's bad, or writing without caring that it's not what I 'should' be writing, or just about writing in general. Please?
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Date: 2012-01-08 12:34 am (UTC)(Although right now my id wants something entirely different than the thing I'm supposed to be writing, eep. But forget I said that.)
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Date: 2012-01-08 12:37 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-01-08 12:39 am (UTC)Also! You know I love your writing!! *flails again*
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Date: 2012-01-08 12:52 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-01-08 01:24 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-01-08 04:22 am (UTC)Practice doesn't make writing easier, but it does make you more familiar with the tricks.
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Date: 2012-01-08 06:02 am (UTC)I am also newly intensely anxious about writing tropes I like because I feel like it reveals too much about me: I can write a sex scene without worry because I'm not interested in sex (though then of course I am uneasy because I have no idea whether the scene is even intelligible to a person who is interested in sex) so it is safely impersonal, but even writing certain types of conversations is TERRIFYING because they are points of personal vulnerability. I am trying to reassure myself that no one can see my emotions over the internet unless I disclose them but it feels like disclosure just to have written the story and, like, what if someone from my daily life (in which I am 1000% less mushy than on the internet and kind of an arrogant robot) somehow finds them, etc, etc. Encouraging words, please.
A thing that is helping re: the above is the idea that I intend to give the story I am specifically thinking of as a gift to someone who likes the same sorts of things, so perhaps that could help you too, even if what you are worrying about is not fanfiction: if it is not enough for you that it gives you pleasure to write it, perhaps you may be consoled by the prospectve pleasure of someone else. Also I do believe that all writing improves one's hand at it IF that is a conscious objective; you can write on any subject, in any vein, however tawdry or sentimental or hackneyed, and do it well, and I think surmount a greater challenge by doing so than by beginning on an 'approved' subject.
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Date: 2012-01-08 09:52 am (UTC)My thought is, in the end, there's no way I could give the people complaining what they want. It's not like I've got fifty other fics in the pipeline that I could be working on -- if I wasn't writing this story, I wouldn't be writing at all. And if I did attempt to keep writing, if I was taking straw polls and trying to give the people what they want... I wouldn't be writing well. Because my heart wouldn't be in it.
This is a hobby. It's not school. It's not a job. You should enjoy what you're doing. You should feel passionate about it. You should want to do it. If you don't, you'll stop.
And for what it's worth? Despite the comments I've seen complaining about my one-track writing brain, I also have people who like what I'm doing. I think every fic does. Doesn't matter what it is, or how closely it dovetails with your own id, or whatever. Someone out there's gonna like what you're doing. And, you know, that person deserves to have fic they like, as much as anyone else does. So if you can't write for you as often as you'd like, write for that person out there going "OMG BRAINTWIN THIS MAKES ME SO HAPPY YOU DON'T KNOW." Because I can pretty much guarantee you that that person is out there. Somewhere.