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Today at work our afternoon receptionist said she really enjoyed seeing me because I was always so positive, it made her happy.

and, like ... she's not wrong, I am always very positive and happy to people at work! and at school! and in general when i go outside to a place where i will be talking to people. Just, there's a difference between being positive and feeling positive, and I am often the first but very rarely the second.

(My first thought was 'ahaha, good to know i can still fake it' but it's not fake, exactly. just wearing a public face.)