esmenet: Kaitou Kid grinning (:D no snipers this heist!)
(oh snap, I am two days late!)

Happy Magical Girl Month, everyone! And happy next-week-is-finals-week for me, oops. (Also I think it may still be Golden Week, which is a holiday I wish the US would adopt.)

I started reading Sailor Moon when the re-releases started being published, and I love it fiercely. I love that Mamoru loves helping Usagi and getting saved by her, I love that Rei and Minako don't need men, I love everyone and everything (except a few of those comments Minako made in the Sailor V manga in the weight gain chapter, ugh).

also Korra is probably a magical girl jsyk.

I've watched a few episodes of Magical Emi, and it's pretty good! Of course, it does combine two of my favorite things, stage magic and real magic, and also there are neat clothes and singing. I am resisting the urge to write a Magic Kaito crossover in which Emi mentors Kaito after his father dies.
esmenet: Mugen, Fuu, and Jin, with the caption "Go Team!" (go team!)
Edging in under the wire here. . . .

20. Yes, but what are your thoughts on yaoi?

It makes rather more sense to call it BL, I suppose. Oh! And Nanahikari will probably always be my favorite one, because it is the best example I have ever read of a story that both contains and needs porn while not actually being about porn.

21. What's your favorite thing about Dreamwidth?

The expand-and-close cut tags. No, wait, the lack of ads! Maybe it's the default interface.

I kid, I kid. Those things are all wonderful, but what I really love here is the people. For all my current lack of commenting or even posting good content, I love you all. ♥
esmenet: Azula being awesome (azula: fantastic)
19. Any questions from the audience?

(My standard question for these things is always "Do you like to cook/what do you cook?" But if you have any questions at all, I'd like to read and try to answer them. :D )


Someday I will make a big giant post about Nurarihyon no Mago. It's like if you put all the things I like about youkai manga and stuck them onto shounen manga and made it amazing, that is what Nurarihyon no Mago is. I think the last time I marathoned a manga like this, it was with Gokusen.

(ETA: That is to say, if I don't calm down and read something else so I can go to sleep, I will not have to worry about these period crams because I will be DEAD. Of sheer AWESOME.)
esmenet: Scar frowning (:[)
16. What are you glad you did but haven't really had a chance to post about?

Baked gooey little chocolate cakes for Mother's Day. Baked brownies-with-chocolate-chip-cookie-crust for her students. Improvised a meal out of chickpeas, eggplants, and no carbohydrates whatsoever. Made a favorite stew this morning right instead of munching on sweets for breakfast. Started kind-of-sort-of working on fics again. Started reading Wizard of the Crow, a surprisingly entertaining story. (Well, it was surprising because it looked simultaneously very entertaining and like one of those dull 'grown-up fiction' books that I hate. So far, all of the awesome and none of the suck!) Started studying Latin. Enjoyed summer. Thought very seriously about getting back into xxxHOLiC fandom, so long as that doesn't entail interacting with most of the fans. Listened (over and over and over) to Lady Gaga's new single.


17. How many people on your reading list do you know offline?

None at all! Mostly stemming from lack of ability to travel at the moment, rather than lack of desire. Well, and also the (possibly unfounded) certainty that I will be incredibly more awkward and less fun in person. If I ever spontaneously turn into a cool and sophisticated person, remind me to ask [personal profile] eisen out for lunch.


18. What don't you talk about here, either because it's too personal or because you don't have the energy?

Real life, mostly, because mine is pretty boring. Cooking/baking, music, femininity performance equipment. I should try and talk more about plotbunnies and novels and language stuff, because then perhaps the amount of them I consume/produce would increase. Knitting. Silly ideas for fanwork-making challenges.

Unfortunately, answering this question is in no way giving me the energy to talk about any of that stuff right now. :P (See: commenting, another thing which I tend not to have so much energy for lately.)
esmenet: Pinkie Pie crossing her eyes and grinning (XD)
14. Did you have a gateway fandom? Still in it? Why or why not? Is there a community for it on DW?

I learned about 'fandom'—and, really, the internet—after taking some kind of kids' writing class when I was ten. This girl showed us her Harry Potter script-format fic on one of the nearby computers. It was terrible, but I loved it, and it set me on my life's path. So I suppose Harry Potter was my gateway fandom, in (possible) tandem with the Tamora Pierce books.

Yes, I'm still in HP fandom, even when I don't particularly want to be. It's a time-sucker, especially with that whole 're-re-re-reading fics I already know and love to death' thing I've got going. (Just re-read most of Secret of Slytherin. ALL THE THINGS I LIKE, it has them.) It kept me from doing all the things I really should have done—that I really wanted to do—today; cleaning, doing laundry, walking around, studying for my final that's in two days, not spending the entire day lying around in bed or sitting in a chair. But there are so, so many worthwhile things about it. Even if I kind of hate canon some of the time, I will always love at least a little teensy part of the fandom. It will never be my home fandom, but it will always be there for me.

(Incidentally, I wrote Hogwarts fic!)



My other gateway fandom was—sigh—D.N. Angel. I saw some terrible music video to it back when I was eleven or twelve, and thought it looked pretty cool (even if it was a cartoon). I have never finished the anime or the manga, and I have never actually written fic for it. It is so very terrible in so many ways, not even including the bad science. But it got me into anime and manga, and introduced me to the concept of a phantom thief. I've started (re)reading the manga for Japanese practice now, and oh the memories. (Also, I just learned how to say 'ordinary'!) It's not nearly as bad as I thought it would be, at least so long as I don't think about it too hard.

Maybe I'll write a crossover or something. It could be fun! Speaking of DNAngel crossovers, this one is fairly good, and helped me realize my love of chase scenes. From either perspective.


15. What's your current obsession? What about it captures your imagination?

SHOES. I don't know why, but I think high heels are positively gorgeous. Of course, if that was all, then I wouldn't care so much about owning and wearing them. I think I love shoes for the same reason I love jackets or dresses or skirts. They look sleek and cool or bright and flouncy, and sometimes both. I also love them the way I love nail polish and lipstick—they're very gender-coded things, and in addition to loving the way they look, I love the way they say "Look at me, I am a girl," and imply all sorts of things by that ("and fuck you," "who wants to stand taller than anyone else," "and I love these colours," among them, usually). I love the way that message can be altered by tacking other things on top of it—facial hair, butch clothes, long unfussy skirts, men's hats—even if I never do.
esmenet: Yankumi with an arrow pointing towards her saying 'Hero', Shin with an arrow saying 'Damsel' (damsel/hero otp)
I think I've started doing these two at a time because my answers are so short that it just doesn't seem worth it to go one at once. :D

12. What do you consider the five most "telling" interests from the list on your profile? Why?

I think it's more telling what interests I don't have. All my interests were typed in when I got my account, save the two or three times I've seen someone else's interests and added some of them, so it's mostly just what was on my mind at the moment back then. I don't even have "asexuality", for goodness' sake. Might want to fix that one.

(And I just removed "neil gaiman", because I used not to know what a jerk he was.)

13. Do you have any unique interests on your user profile? What are they? How'd they get there?

Yes! Usagi Dropprobably has some DW fans under the title Bunny Drop, but I like the way Usagi Drop sounds and looks. Nanahikari is the only porny consent-issues yaoi manga I actually like, because it actually deals a bit with the aforementioned issues and there is plot (interesting family issues!) and the art is really good. Yakuza manga will always be one of my favorite manga (haven't read much manhwa/manhua that deals with actual organized crime)genres, which I blame partly on Gokusen. Go, Yankumi, go! Save your kidnapped love interests!
esmenet: Little!Anthy with swords (anthy~)
10. Tell me about your default icon.

Um. This is surprisingly hard! It isn't actually loaded with symbolism and meaning or anything—well, it is, but it's not really my symbolism and meaning. I love Anthy kind of a lot, and this scene is always really painful for me to watch. But really I picked it for my default because it's a very pretty icon, with the different reds and the butterfly cutout window and the dark lines and shapes of the scene, and because I wanted to continue my semi-tradition of having Utena-only default icons.

11. What feature do you think Dreamwidth should have that it doesn't currently?

The ability to actually save drafts of entries would be super-nice for me, but that's because Google Docs is less fun to use these days and Zoho Writer has a tendency to flake out on me. A kudos button like on AO3, maybe? But really, DW has most of what I need—that's why I'm here.
esmenet: Close-up of Chrome turning her head (ace of hearts: prelude)
My contribution to Magical Girl Month today: starting a long(er than usual) Chrome fic. It's the first time in a long time that the title of a fic came to me before the rest of it.

08. What is your philosophy on journal layouts?

My philosophy is that if you like looking at a certain kind of webpage, go for it. My opinion is that there need to be more pink ones.

I've also seen eight as What community do you wish was more active?

Well, the one I'm supposedly running would be a good one. But, erm, that might require me actually posting in it? Otherwise, I would have to answer (again) with [community profile] asexual_fandom, just because I really do think the world is a better place with more ace fannishness in it (and also because I enjoy that sort of thing).

09. Are there two people on your reading list that you think should meet?

I know most of my rlist through each other, actually. But [personal profile] skygiants is primarily an LJ person, and I think she would like most of my rlist, who are primarily DW people. Though I know she knows some of them already! :D
esmenet: Utena and Akio duelling (akio vs. utena)
So, earlier today [personal profile] littlebutfierce reminded me that May is MAGICAL GIRL MONTH. And since I missed it last year, I have some making up to do! Happily, I posted some squee about Lenalee in what was in some timezones May 1st, so let's see if I can keep it up.

And since we're using a broad definition of 'magical girl' here, I'm going to talk about Chrome Dokuro.

I never thought I'd turn into the kind of person who kept up with a fandom for one or two characters and ignored the rest. And I haven't! But even though I do love a lot of other things about KHR and its fandom (see: this) Chrome and Mukuro are the ones I think and write and fic about to near-exclusion. They combine a lot of things I like—reincarnation! illusion! the blurring of lies and truth! unshakable partnerships of the not-necessarily romantic variety! Gender issues! Mental health issues! Buddhism!—and stay away from a lot of the things I don't.

And I like what Reborn said about them. "Because of Chrome, Mukuro can exist. Because of Mukuro, Chrome can live." (or something like that) In my head, they're separate characters, but not entirely separate people; that's why I'm talking about both of them and not just her. Mukuro will have to break out of prison sometime, but I kind of don't want him to. I like the way that Chrome is his lifeline to the world, I like the idea that they've blurred together a little, or maybe more than a little. I like the idea that Mukuro used to be a girl like Chrome, once upon a time, and he enjoys being that again and also offering the help he didn't have when he was. I like the idea that Chrome's strength is in silence and passivity right up until she needs it to be otherwise, and I like the idea that Mukuro is a little bit the same way.

I love Bianchi and Kyoko and Haru and Hana and Adelheid and Shitt P. and Lal Mirch and Uni, but Chrome will always be my favorite of the KHR ladies. She's the kind of quiet character I don't get to write very often, the one who's polite and loyal and a little bit lonely and goes unfazed by things that would knock less-experienced people flat.

Also, I wrote Chrome fic! It's kind of unpolished, but is about Chrome thinking about how D. Spade is a LYING LIAR WHO LIES and how hard that's going to hurt him. CHROME ILU LOTS OKAY ♥ ♥ ♥
esmenet: Azula, Ty Lee, Mai, all standing together and looking awesome (dangerous ladies)
03. Do you crosspost? Why or why not?

I crosspost for the same reason everyone else does: because I've got some friends over there I don't want to lose. I don't crosspost locked things that I particularly care about staying locked, like personal stuff about my (awesome) cousins.

04. What do you do online when you're not on DW?

I always have a tab or window open to DW, even on my iPod or when I'm doing school stuff on one of the college's computers. But when I'm not actively doing DW things, I'm reading off-site fanfiction or hunting for new music or reading unlicensed manga or watching dramas or following a link from my rlist or looking at pictures of shoes. I do kind of feel like I've gone ALL DREAMWIDTH ALL THE TIME, though.

05. How about when you're not on the computer?

With my shiny shiny iPod touch that I carry around with me and listen to all the time while I do other stuff, I am effectively on the computer ALWAYS. Except for violin-playing time and most of when I'm in class. (Hey, my iPod has a Japanese dictionary on it!)

But the things I do that do not involve active online/video-watching participation are: Cook. Bake. Read novels and manga and history and language books. Clean. Put on lipstick. Wish I had a grand piano (because then I would actually play it). Play the violin (and wish I knew/could find more interesting violin music). Knit shawls. Walk around while reading books (and also while not reading books). Paint my nails. Work on fulfilling my life's ambition of BEING AWESOME.

These always turn into lists of what I do, without mentioning the reasons I do them. But I think these are pretty self-evident so that's okay.
esmenet: pre-series Anthy, with swords (the princess cave)
Because I was out of the house all day yesterday and typing on an iPod is no fun.

01. Why did you sign up for Dreamwidth?

A year and some change ago, [personal profile] copperbadge backed up all his fic over here and talked about it a little. Around the same time, I noticed that a lot of the more insightful posts linked by [community profile] metafandom were posted on DW. I didn't sign up for a while, because I'm only good at focusing on a few things in my life at once -- if I focus on writing my violin-playing suffers, if I focus on knitting my reading suffers, if I focus on LJ my studies suffer. So I can only be active on two or three websites or the rest of my life disappears. And I liked the sites I was on at the time.

But then I poked around a bit and saw that the site looked pretty cool, and even though you needed an invite code they were very easy to get. And the subscription and access features were separate, which was a pretty big draw -- I could just subscribe to anyone who consistently posted stuff I liked without feeling awkward in the least. So I did just that, and here we are. (I still haven't changed my bio or interests since then, even though they could do with it. Oops?)


02. Why did you choose your journal name?

By the time I signed up for LJ I had started to really like online names that felt like names -- not ones that necessarily sounded like names people would have IRL, but something you could say out loud without feeling silly. My old username of LandUnderWave was starting to get a little bit, well, old, and I was starting to get interested in Buddhism -- not really in a religious way, just because it was interesting --so I signed up as [livejournal.com profile] ojuzu. (Ojuzu are those prayer strings of 108 beads.) It's a good solid name, but I never quite liked the way it looked. I like it more now than I used to, actually.

Then I read The Darkness That Comes Before and its sequels (beautiful beautiful books, read them if you can) and fell in love. Well, 'love' isn't quite the right word. One of the characters just hit me so hard, because she was me. By which I mean that I could have been her.

Things didn't turn out too well for Esmenet in the end -- well, they didn't turn out too well for anyone. But her decisions could have been made by me, and it wasn't her fault the world she lived in sucked for women like her. So this name was intended partly as a warning to myself, partly as a reminder that yes, sometimes there can be awesome women in fantasy that I identify with who stay awesome, and partly to be a name that looked nice on the page. I don't remember what site I chose it for at first, but it's turned since then into something that is not really any of those three things: it's just my name. And I like it.
esmenet: four aces (so fucking ace)
Chrome loves kissing people. Quicker and lighter than a hug, a kiss is her thank-you, her goodbye, her I-love-you. Hugs are too close, hugs are traps, hugs are painful and dangerous even if nobody is carrying weapons. But a kiss is fast and intimate and safe, you can kiss someone and step back away faster than they can stop you.

She wants to kiss people on the lips, feel their words stop and their breathing change, but she doesn't want anyone to take it the wrong way. Chrome is not interested in the things people usually pair with kissing; they are messy and time-consuming and awkward. She wants the other things, the smiling faces and warm eyes that say someone is happy when they see her, the friendly affection that is close but not too close.

She gets them.

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